Alright, guys. Confession time. This is the most I've ever weighed in my life. I carry my weight in my stomach. Hello Food Baby! I'm disgusted with myself. I have no motivation. I'm lazy. I'm also an emotional eater. When I have a bad day, I want nachos. When I feel bad about myself or my weight, I eat. See the problem? Oh and I refuse to sip the kale-aid everybody is currently on. I also refuse to make myself miserable and never eat anything good again. See my second problem? I'm also the worst runner known to man, so binge cardio is out of the question.
I find myself saying I'm fat. I'm disgusted with myself. I need to lose weight. I just want to be skinny again. Nothing looks good on me. I hate my food baby. Blah blah whine whine whine. I say all of these things multiple times a day, but I don't do anything about it. I don't run. I don't go to the gym. I work at a coffee shop with access to every delicious pastry you could ever imagine.
I have officially decided that hating the way I look every second of every day is not worth the god damn cookie. (sorry family) I also don't eat cookies that often, but I bought those delicious frosting cookies the other night at Target and that's been my treat of the week.
I'm tired of being self conscious. I'm tired of worrying if people are looking at my food baby. I'm tired of feeling like the "fat friend". And I'm sooo tired of playing the comparison game with everybody I have ever known on social media.
I'm writing this post to hold myself accountable. I've done it before and it worked. So here I am. Bearing my fat cushioned soul to you. (dramatic, I know) If you feel the same way I do, let's help each other out. Email me. Comment. I could definitely use some friends and some motivation.
I won't be doing anything drastic. I don't want to weigh 100 pounds or anything cray. I'm 5'9". It won't be happening. Just being active. (potential gym membership in my future) Making better food choices. And hopefully finding ways other than food to make myself feel better when I'm upset.
So lets do this! Share your tips if you have any! :)
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